Sorry I’ve been away from my blog, I’ve been working more late nights than I wish to count. I haven’t had much time for posting but something that has recently occurred has really got my mind going. This past weekend, my good friend Shaler got engaged. Many congrats go out to Shaler and his woman. And while I am very happy for them, I am also a tiny bit sad for myself. I never considered that I would have to share Shaler with another and now I’m afraid I might have lost him forever.

As I sit here at my desk I realize that I might never have another hug from Shaler. This makes me sad as I feel safest in his arms. No other person seems to understand me the way he does. I don’t want to go all brokeback on ya’ll, but I just don’t know how to quit Shaler.

The wedding will be hard to attend. I’m afraid to let people see me cry, but I don’t think I’ll be able to hold in my tears. Shaler, I’ll try to be strong for you, but I can’t make any promises. Perhaps I can find comfort in the arms of another.

Jham, will you hold me?